29 May 2012

My last egg sandwich

Yesterday I ate (less than half of) my last egg sandwich.  It was scrambled egg with cheese on an everything bagel.  I was driving westward from Philly, and listening to a Midwest Vegan Radio podcast.  Ah, the irony...or not.

I just couldn't stomach it.

The experience reminded me of when I quit smoking (for the last time).  I stopped doing anything else, and stopped my brain from thinking about anything else, and I just lived in the moment of smoking.  How it tasted, how it smelled.  And it was disgusting.

The eggs...how they tasted, how they smelled...it was disgusting.

I stopped eating land animal flesh altogether in January 2002.  And even before then, I was cognizant of that rubbery consistency that meat often has.  That spongey, connective tissue-y ickiness had become absolutely unpalatable to me.  Because when I stopped everything else and just lived in the experience, it was utterly and painfully obvious that I was eating an animal's body.

And now that's how I feel about eggs too.  Of course, I could try the Jillian-Michaels-thing and convince myself that if I just find "humane" cage-free eggs, it's okay, it's not so bad. But that's crap, and it's still coming from an animal's body.  I just can't eat it anymore.